Just had a great workout

Been going strong on the 2-a-days!

Feeling better

I hate to say it, but yesterday I did so good..... I went to the gym twice, ate healthy, and then around dinner time I was so hungry. I fixed some egg whites and turkey bacon, but still felt so hungry. A few days ago, I had stopped by Walgreens and got a ton of chocolate. I should have just thrown it away, because I knew it was going to tempt me....And it did. I ran up to my room like a crazy chocolate addict and ate all of it. Then I went to my favorite mexican restaurant and indulged there too. I of course came home, threw up and felt so ashamed.

Today is a new day, and I wont allow myself to do that today... I need to take this a day at a time, and today I have control.

Here is my progress.........

Im back on track....today

Geez, I started feeling like I was never going to be able to get back on track...It took a lot of effort today and mind control, to get outta bed today.....put on those gym shoes......and get my butt to the gym- but I did it! I also ate really healthy and its crazy how much better I feel!

Being Bulimic sucks, and getting over it is very hard. But when I feel like this, compared to how I felt the last couple of days (eating everything in sight and then taking a trip to the bathroom) It makes me realize how much better it is to be healthy. I have a lot of work to do, and I missed out on 3 days of work.

Bulimia is a son of a bitch

I cant seem to get back up after this last fall. These last two days have been full of eating a bunch of shit, and then throwing it all up. I am so disgusted in myself. I want to start feeling good again. I went to the store and got some more healthy food, and Im going to set my alarm clock so I get up at a decent time. I need to jump start my gym to 2 a days to get myself back on track.
Well, wish me luck!
...Tomorrow is a new day

:(

I binged tonight, and I hate to say it but I did purge.
Damn it.
This is a struggle though, and I cant beat myself up about it- I just cant do it again. It was dumb of me and I  am upset. Tomorrow is a new day, and I will wake up and start to eat healthy, work out- and get back on track.
Goodnight

You fall and get back up

Geez....If I were to be graded on this weekend- I would get a big fat F. I was good up until Friday night. Then I went out to a big dinner, of course ate a lot of garbage- and then all day Saturday I ate a bunch of crap, as well as DIDNT go to the gym and as a result I feel awful... My body aches, my stomach hurts, its not a good situation. Of course there will be times that I cant be 100% in my diet, and there are days that I will give in, but I need to remember this is how I will feel and I do NOT like the feeling. I feel slugish and unmotivated, and I feel like a failure, but I need to change that all around. Going back on today, and need to turn it around.

Cant wait for the day....

Im seeing huge results on my upper body...Not so much the bottom half. Its upsetting but Im hoping that I see results soon... I have been doing 20 minutes of cardio a day, and focusing on my arms with weights, so maybe thats why. I know I have stored a lot of fat all over my body, and especially in my thighs and butt. Maybe I should start strength training and doing squats- SOMETHING!


....I cant wait to see an inner-thigh gap, that will be the day:)